the darker side of love .

love ; a feeling very few find and very few forget .

dreamt up of being the definition of perfection,

yeah it can be good, it can even be perfect,

buh sometimes the bad side... seems to get left out...

really, is love much more darker, sinister and torturous?

Is love waiting by the phone for the call that will never happen?

Is love biting your lips and digging those chewed nails

Into your skin until you bleed,

Because the colour reminds you of the romance you once had.

Is love constantly applying your make up to make yourself beautiful,

But what you really like is affect of the mascara running down your face.

Is love trying your hardest to get the best of you noticed,

But of course you fuck something up, and that’s what’s noticed.

and never forgotten.

Is love insomnia and crying yourself to sleep,

because everything you thought you knew, changed,

and turned on you.

is love begging and screaming and yelling,

until your voice hurts and you can barely stand up,

Is love waking up to your hair covered pillow,

Because you had nothing else to hold on to,

Is love laughing at every joke someone makes, funny or not,

Because the thought of someone knowing how you really feel

Would eat you up faster than the person making you feel like shit,

Is love the feeling of a burning sensation in your throught & mouth,

your stomach hurts, it just makes the pain worse, and you actually dont mind it.

Is love watching them hugging and laughing together,

And stopping yourself screaming from the pain of the invisible

Knife cutting open your heart,

You don’t know how it ended up like this, it just did .

and i'd go through it over and over again, undoubtedly smiling, just to have you here ...